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Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Houston, we are at 48 hours and counting

That's right by this time in 48 hours, I will have had my surgery, well hopefully I will have!!

The Dr dropped this beauty on Monday, maybe I won't have surgery, it could get cancelled and I wont know until I get to the hospital on Friday morning!!

So ramp up my anxiety levels, just a little higher, why not I ask??

Apparently because of my co-morbidity factors, high blood pressure and type 2 diabetes, I need to go to ICU after recovery, for a minimum of 12 hours.  So, it seems that even though there is a bed in ICU booked for me, if someone else has some sort of emergency post op, or heart attack or the like, they can take my bed (and rightfully so but I will still be pissed off).

If this happens, well apparently I get fitted in some time later, who knows when ... a week, 2 weeks, a month???

So, I have been trying to put that aside and just focus on the fact that surgery will happen some time Friday afternoon.  I have to be in at the hospital at 10, I can have breakfast in the morning and not eat or drink after 8 am, so I imagine I'm later in the afternoon rather than straight after lunch.  Or maybe a protein bar and a cup of tea doesn't take that long to digest.

The Dr is pleased as I have lost 6 kgs now (and according to my scales this morning maybe 7kg) on the VLCD.

I am almost off my insulin, only need to take it about once a week and at minimum dose.  I have dropped 1 Diamicron and 1 Metformin tablet a day and seem to be having almost 'normal' levels when I do the fasting test in the morning and the pre-bed test at night.

Which raises the question, why the hell is that happening.  It is not the 6kg weight loss, it actually started the day I started the VLCD, in fact I had a mega hypo that afternoon as I took 2 diamicron that morning and the normal dose of insulin the night before.  In fact, I lost 12 kgs last year and I am only back to that level now and I certainly didn't have any reduction in BG with that weight loss.

It leaves me asking the question, does Diabetes Australian really know what they are talking about with regard to Type 2 Diabetes.  There mantra is not much protein, lots of green vegetables and a small but consistent amount of carbs (Low GI ones).  This diet is high protein, lots of green vegetables (no starchy ones) and NO carbs.  That's right NONE.  Which should be rights give me high BG levels.

Does this mean I really am a square peg in a round hole??  In fact, the Dr was blown away when I told him, made him go from we can get you off insulin post surgery but not into remission, to saying, well maybe remission is a possibility for me.  Not hanging onto that, but wouldn't that be fantastic if that was the case.  I had set my goal as off insulin and done to just Metformin, and I will still be happy with that, but this raises the question, can I do it, and if I can, how long will it last before/if my BG levels start to go up.  I would love it if the answer was they stay down forever, but I am just not sure that if you have got to insulin dependence once, that you don't gradually work your way back there again because you have intrinsically broken something.

So if you pray, I would appreciate your prayers, and if you don't - you healing thoughts and wishes would also be lovely ... I am going to imagine myself wrapped in healing light and love, to give me the courage to take this step ... one huge step, for me, for weight loss and for the future.  I was going to do the whole Neil Armstrong quote, but thought that might be a tad tacky - lol.

Thanks for popping by xxx


  1. Sending both your way for successfully getting off the insulin and the operation going as planned and safely.

    1. Thanks Delores, your good wishes are very much appreciated. xxx

  2. Lots and lots of positive thoughts that the surgery will go as planned tomorrow. It's a big step, but one that you're capable of, and one that with thoughtful lifestyle change, will provide you with years of better health - mentally, emotionally and physically.

    Thinking of you. The countdown is truly on now. Lots of love and hugs.

    1. Thanks sweetie, I need all the positive thoughts I can get right about now and yours are very much appreciated. Thanks for being in my corner xxx

  3. You are tightly wrapped in healing light and love. You will have the operation on Friday. You will recover beautifully, and insulin will be a thing of the past. Crossing everything for you still...

    1. Thanks EC, I will blanket myself in your light and love tomorrow and use it as a shield against the anxiety that is already building within. Please stay upright with everything crossed, I don't want to be the cause of you falling xxx

  4. I am so glad we had that long chat this evening and you know that Pop and I send you our love and positive and healing thoughts. We have followed your progress over the past few weeks. You have done so well and I wholeheartedly agree with you about the teachings of Diabetes Australia....they label us all as Type 2 diabetics and then one diet fits all. This is absurd but you won't get them to admit it. We are all different and what suits one does not suit another.
    Remember you are much loved and like EC said everything will be crossed. Positive thoughts flying to you tomorrow. We will be with you in spirit if not in person.
    Love you...xxxx

    1. Thanks Mum and Pop, I know I can always count on you to be there for me, and even when not possible in person, I know you are there in thought because you are always in my heart. xxxx

  5. Thinking about you Kakka, and wishing and praying for a speedy recovery and a healthier future for you xx



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