The Dr dropped this beauty on Monday, maybe I won't have surgery, it could get cancelled and I wont know until I get to the hospital on Friday morning!!
So ramp up my anxiety levels, just a little higher, why not I ask??
Apparently because of my co-morbidity factors, high blood pressure and type 2 diabetes, I need to go to ICU after recovery, for a minimum of 12 hours. So, it seems that even though there is a bed in ICU booked for me, if someone else has some sort of emergency post op, or heart attack or the like, they can take my bed (and rightfully so but I will still be pissed off).
If this happens, well apparently I get fitted in some time later, who knows when ... a week, 2 weeks, a month???
So, I have been trying to put that aside and just focus on the fact that surgery will happen some time Friday afternoon. I have to be in at the hospital at 10, I can have breakfast in the morning and not eat or drink after 8 am, so I imagine I'm later in the afternoon rather than straight after lunch. Or maybe a protein bar and a cup of tea doesn't take that long to digest.
The Dr is pleased as I have lost 6 kgs now (and according to my scales this morning maybe 7kg) on the VLCD.
I am almost off my insulin, only need to take it about once a week and at minimum dose. I have dropped 1 Diamicron and 1 Metformin tablet a day and seem to be having almost 'normal' levels when I do the fasting test in the morning and the pre-bed test at night.
Which raises the question, why the hell is that happening. It is not the 6kg weight loss, it actually started the day I started the VLCD, in fact I had a mega hypo that afternoon as I took 2 diamicron that morning and the normal dose of insulin the night before. In fact, I lost 12 kgs last year and I am only back to that level now and I certainly didn't have any reduction in BG with that weight loss.
It leaves me asking the question, does Diabetes Australian really know what they are talking about with regard to Type 2 Diabetes. There mantra is not much protein, lots of green vegetables and a small but consistent amount of carbs (Low GI ones). This diet is high protein, lots of green vegetables (no starchy ones) and NO carbs. That's right NONE. Which should be rights give me high BG levels.
Does this mean I really am a square peg in a round hole?? In fact, the Dr was blown away when I told him, made him go from we can get you off insulin post surgery but not into remission, to saying, well maybe remission is a possibility for me. Not hanging onto that, but wouldn't that be fantastic if that was the case. I had set my goal as off insulin and done to just Metformin, and I will still be happy with that, but this raises the question, can I do it, and if I can, how long will it last before/if my BG levels start to go up. I would love it if the answer was they stay down forever, but I am just not sure that if you have got to insulin dependence once, that you don't gradually work your way back there again because you have intrinsically broken something.
So if you pray, I would appreciate your prayers, and if you don't - you healing thoughts and wishes would also be lovely ... I am going to imagine myself wrapped in healing light and love, to give me the courage to take this step ... one huge step, for me, for weight loss and for the future. I was going to do the whole Neil Armstrong quote, but thought that might be a tad tacky - lol.
Thanks for popping by xxx