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Thursday, January 31, 2013

The Big 40

And today she turns 40, that's right my first born daughter, now a mother in her own right celebrates one of the big milestone birthdays.  

Happy Birthday my love, may you have a wonderful day.

Here is a post I wrote back in August 2009, I hope you don't mind me sharing it again ...

Moments in Time ... my first born

To feel you growing inside me, it was my secret, I was so young, how do you tell your Mum, your boyfriend, your friends. I kept you all to myself for as long as I could, I was scared they would take you away. I told my boyfriend and he ran, he wasn't ready, and yet strangely I was. I knew that being a mother to you was what I was born to do. I tried to tell my Grandma but I couldn't find the words, she guessed anyway and told my Mum, who came out and asked me.

I couldn't lie any longer eventually the world would know. I wasn't ashamed, I was just scared they would be angry and take you away. You were mine, I could feel you moving inside me, I would lay there at night and caress my tummy knowing that you were there, safe and sound.

Your father came back, we married, oh so young, and we tried to make it work. We were happy in our little house. It was a very hot summer and I was so pregnant - huge belly proudly worn - my child encased within.

Way past your due date, and you were so happy to stay safe inside. Three times they tried to induce you, but you were hanging in there.

It got hotter and I got bigger and then finally the time came. We had your named picked out, you were going to be Lee - whether a boy or a girl - that was your name. In hard labour, your father says, if it is a girl can we called her Christie - and without thinking I said yes - and so you came to be - our Christie Lee. Our beautiful daughter, so perfect.

Less than 24 hours old

Poppy called you a worried Eskimo - you seemed so serious, new born and yet studying those around you with a frown - your old soul showed in your eyes and I knew it would be fine, because you were mine.

We stayed in hospital for a whole 10 days, me learning to be a Mum, you teaching me lessons. Bonding was instantaneous, I had known you and talked to you and kept you hidden for so long just the 2 of us together hiding from the world. Now I wanted the world to see - how beautiful you were to me. But I also wanted to keep you close - to look at you and know that part of me was part of you. Someone that would always be there for me, even if everyone else left. You were mine and I was so in love with your little face, your tiny hands and feet. The way you wrapped you hand around my finger.

Everyone wanted a part of you, but I got the best parts, the time when your father was at work and we were home together alone. Snuggling in bed together in the morning, going for walks in the sunshine, having your baths with all those bubbles. Your smile, your laugh.

We learned the lessons of life together, me so young and you so new - and yet so old - the old soul come to help me start my motherhood journey - and what a good job you did - preparing me for the life ahead - my role of mother to many. I was truly blessed the day you were born, I was so young and yet so ready to be your Mum.


  1. Oh and now I'm all misty eyed. Happy Birthday Christie Lee.

  2. How beautiful. My mother hid my presence for a long time too. They did try to take me from her, but she wouldn't budge. It was only 3 years after Christie was born. But she was only 15 when she found out, barely 16 when she had me.

    She's a lucky woman, to have you by her side.

  3. It was wonderful to be with you all yesterday at lunch sharing the time with Christie on her 40th birthday (makes me feel quite old to have a granddaughter of that age). No matter what age she is we will always be proud of Christie and her achievements and of you for bringing her up to help make her what she is today. You have always been a great mum as Christie herself now is with her two delightful little girls. Love to all of you. xxx

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