The Plateau ... the place where you don't want to be on a weight loss journey, but the PLACE I seem to be stuck pretty much for the last few weeks.
Once upon a time I thought that if I could just get below 100kgs I would be happy, and now that I am there, in double digits for the first time in 30 years, well I am sort of happy but very, very frustrated.
I need to lose more to achieve not just the goals that Dr C set for me, but the goals my body needs to reduce my arthritis, to allow me to have a knee replacement, to give me the freedom to travel to my daughter's wedding in America in September.
But here I am stuck, yoyoing between 98.2 and 99.2, up and down and up and down, and the horrible thing is, rather than motivating me to try harder, it is just making me give up.
All the negative thoughts are back, the 'this is what my body does' thoughts, the 'what does it matter' thoughts, and so my motivation takes a walk out the door.
The funny thing is that, positive comments about my weight loss, and I am getting quite a few from people who haven't seen me in a long time, are not motivating me. In fact, they almost do the opposite. Strange brain I have it seems, cause my internal voice says, well, see you are still looking great, you have done a great job, do you really have to do more?
Well, yes I do, about another 25 kgs more. So I will need to have some strong words with my internal voice and somehow find that motivation to get back in the pool, because I believe, that I can't really eat much less than I am.
Life is never easy, I suppose I just need to find the energy to keep on plodding on, one gram at a time.
Thanks for popping by xxx
The thing is...you are not gaining!!!!! That is BIG!!!! Give it a little time (I know it's hard/been there and done that) and suddenly you will start moving again. Take a good look at what you are taking in. There could be a monster hiding there. Could be as simple as a drop of honey you are putting in your tea..something small that you eat or drink everyday and you just haven't noticed it. My other suggestion would be to go meatless for a few days. You'll be surprised at the difference protein from another source can make. Congratulations on getting as far as you have and just keep on keeping on. It will pay off in the end.
ReplyDeleteHow truly frustrating for you. The plateau will ease away and you will continue to be the incredible shrinking woman. (I suspect just at the moment I have more faith in you than you do yourself.) You have done amazingly well, and will continue. (And I also need to get back in the pool - where I have noticed that the weight melts away when I am consistent). Hugs and love.
ReplyDeleteI second what Delores and EC have both said. You must not give up, tempting as it may seem right now. I really do think Dr C expected more as perhaps he didn't really believe you when you told him what your daily diet was prior to the op. I myself can't eat much less than I do now but my weight yoyos from 96kg to 98kg back and forth. I know in my case if I could only go for even a short walk it would make a difference and you too have the problem of not being very mobile. I have heard it is possible to think yourself thin so maybe you just need a different mindset. Perhaps just put it right out of your mind for a few days and then back to fight the good fight again.
ReplyDeleteYou have so many people in your corner cheering you on which I hope helps you achieve what right now seems unachievable. You know how much you are loved. xx
Sadly I have to confess that just an hour ago I ate a whole packet of biscuits. They were very small biscuits, but still, the whole packet....oh well, I'm on a no dessert week, that should help.
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