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Friday, September 28, 2012

Is That A Train ... Or Light At The End Of The Tunnel?

There is the slightest possibility that there may be a light, a pain free light, at the end of the long dark tunnel.

Now I am not getting my hopes up (well trying really hard not too) but the pain specialist I saw today said he may be able to take some of my lower back and leg pain away.

I had got myself into such a bad way that I was shedding tears on the way to the appointment, I had diarrhoea before I left the house (4 times and took gastro stop just in case), certain that he would say there was nothing he could do.  I even made hubby take me because I knew if he said 'sorry' I would dissolve into a puddle on the floor, just like the witch in the Wizard of Oz.  A huge puddle of tears, that is the tightrope I am walking on at the moment, that is the sort of pressure I am feeling.

Because, you see, he is my last hope.  My last hope that I can get back to walking without pain, standing without pain, and sometimes even sitting without pain.  My last hope that I might be able to travel overseas, or even somewhere closer without it being a waste of money because all I can do is sit.

He is not giving me a 100% assurance, but he is willing to try, and if that doesn't work to try something else.

So Universe, it is time you gave this little black duck a good outcome, because she is not sure she is up for another failure.

Thanks for popping by xxx




13 comments:

  1. Oh sweetheart. I am so glad that there is indeed light at the end of that dark and lonely tunnel. I say lonely because I know that you have support, but no-one except you can carry the pain burden.
    A return, or even a possible return to some sort of normalacy is beyond wonderful.
    Hugs, and many of them.

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    1. Thanks EC, I wish there was something that could offer you some relief from your horrible progressive disease, I keep praying for a cure. You are a special and caring friend. xxx

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    1. Thanks Delores, I too have everything crossed. xxx

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  3. I was delighted when you telephone me today to say the specialist is going to his best to alleviate the pain you have. Yes, everything crossed for 18 October and that after the treatment these is some relief. It even sounds as though he is willing to persevere after that, so thinking of that beautiful ocean picture I posted a while a go keep your eye on that light at the end of tunnel.
    You are much younger than me so be positive in your thoughts and try and visualise yourself feeling much better.
    I remember several years ago when Dr G said to me "Sorry, there is nothing further I can do for you!" Sounded like the voice of doom but still I struggle on as we always do. xxxx

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  4. Best wishes to you Kakka. I'm so sorry to hear you're struggling and in pain.
    xoxo

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    1. Thanks Sweetie, if it works, or even partially works, it will lift a huge burden from my soul. xxx

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  5. Finding a provider who is willing to try more than one method and actually work to alleviate your pain is certainly half the battle. I hope that he is able to give you some relief. Living in pain is such a taxing existence.

    I'm hopeful for a positive outcome. Thinking of you!

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    1. Thanks Kam, I am trying not to get too excited just in case, but to have someone in my corner that agrees with me that this is more SI Joint related rather than Facet Joint related is nice. Thanks for popping by and commenting xxx

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  6. Oh I hope it works out for you, I know each step I take is painful it not the way I would like to live.

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    1. I hope that someone can do something for your feet, while a bad back and leg is not wonderful, sore feet is definitely worse. Hugs xxx

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  7. Great news. I hope option one works but if not at least the specialist is willing to try something different.

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    1. Thanks E. hopefully something will work, I so need a break right about now. Thanks for popping by xxx

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