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Thursday, May 13, 2010

Sometimes My Heart Breaks

I read your posts - you share about your struggles, you share about your heartache, you share about your uncertainties, you share about your children and their struggles with bullying and autism, you share about the little ones you have lost - and my heart breaks, tears spill from my eyes. I want to help you all, to reach out and make it better, to hug you close, to stroke your hair and tell you it will be okay. To tell you it is a long and hard road but there can be light at the end of the tunnel, for it is a road that I too have walked to some degree.

You share about your impending divorce, you share about a coldness growing between you and your love, you share about the stress you deal with as parents - and it touches a place in my soul - and I want to tell you that sometimes it is better to let go, and sometimes it is better to hang on because it will get better because this road is also known to me.

Sometimes I will comment, but sometimes I just can't - it doesn't mean I haven't been there and read and understood, it is just sometimes I don't have the words, or sometimes I think I will be overstepping the bounds of blog etiquette, or sometimes my heart is just breaking too much because there are wounds that I think have healed - that I have dealt with, and then I read your posts and there they are back again in all their glory.

So my beautiful blogging friends, know that I am reading, that I am hearing, that I am understanding and supporting, but sometimes you may not know that I have been there.


  1. Your post reminds me so much of my sister. She has such an empathetic, merciful heart. It's so hard to hear about others' struggles, she feels their pain so deeply! I think it's such a sweet, admirable trait!

    Hugs to you!

  2. Karen, your words have never been short of perfect. Somehow, despite the miles between us you have never failed to respond when I most needed it. Your words have never failed to make me feel better.

    I sometimes think of you as the mother of our little group (growing larger and larger, no?) and your beautiful words are so treasured.

    Don't underestimate the effect you have.

  3. I know what you mean Kakka. It's difficult, sometimes, to express yourself without sounding trite or like it's lip service. And sometimes I feel like such a voyeur, reading such personal things without commenting, but honestly, I wouldn't know what to say...

  4. You are so lovely Kakka. I feel like a bit of a wanker sometimes when i read people's posts about their heartbreaking difficulties and there I am writing about lipstick.

  5. Lovely post, K. I am the same, sometimes I don't feel 'qualified' enough to comment, and at the same time a simple 'thinking of you' doesn't seem enough effort after a mammoth heart wrenching post, but more often than not that is all I can say.

  6. I sometimes see that I have had a Perth visitor. It makes me feel safe just knowing you have popped in. xx

  7. Kakka, you are such a beautiful soul. xo

  8. Kakka, I couldn't reply to this the other night when I read it (gremlins in my computer...), but I made a point of reminding myself to make it back here to attempt to post my gratitude that you do read. I often feel the same as you and end up not commenting because I can't find the words.



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