Yes we saw some homes we liked, but the whole question of moving causes me anxiety.
1. There is the actual move itself - I have lived in this house for 32 years this month - I have 32 years of stuff in this house - can you imagine packing all that up and then unpacking at the other end.
2. This has been our family home - apart from about 5 months before we moved here - my memories - both good and bad are in this house, how do you leave that behind.
3. I hope to retire in the next 2 years - I don't really want to take on a big mortgage this close to that happening.
4. Yes our suburb is not the flashest - but I know where everything is, I can drive home without thinking.
5. One of my daughters and eldest grand-daughter live only streets away.
6. What is to say that moving to a new area will be better, you can't control who your neighbours are, can you?
Yes there are things about this house and this neighbourhood and lets face it some neighbours in particular that drive me insane. But I love my house and back yard and the memories. I love the climbing rose outside my study window. I love the fact we have a backyard always full of birds and we have a big tree. My essence is in this house - I don't think my family understand that. Yes I am always resistant to change, I admit I like my comfort zone, am I ready to move on yet. I don't know.
The alternative is to spend money on this house and make it exactly as I want - a remodelling of the living area - a new outside area, a new bathroom - I could do all this for much less than the mortgage we would have if we moved. Yes I would still have the crappy neighbours - but at least I know how to ignore them.
So should I just throw it all the winds and take the leap? Do I really want to do that, and do I have the courage to, if I do want to.
