It seems I am suffering from some sort of melancholy, and I have been in a funk all day. Many of the blog posts I have read over the last few days talk about loss, missing someone, broken relationships and siblings.
As written before, my brother chose to leave our family nearly 10 years ago. He and I were not particularly close, and I have dealt with the decision he made, but for some reason, tonight, I miss him.
I hope he is doing well, I just wish he would pick up the phone and call, I would welcome him back in a heartbeat.
I miss you Steve.
I'm sorry, Karen. I hope that he's well, and missing you too, enough to hopefully one day make contact again.
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Feel better soon, lovely friend. Have a relaxed, happy Sunday with your love.
Oh, this breaks my heart. I'm so sorry. I've been fighting the melancholy lately, too. I hope your brother will somehow see this and will pick up the phone TODAY!! Hugs, my friend!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you've been a little "down under" lately...I hope nothing I wrote contributed to your funk.
ReplyDeleteI know what you are dealing with in regards your brother, I have an adopted sister who has done the same thing. May our families heal..and if not...then may we accept the situation and heal ourselves. Remember, we can't let other peoples decisions about THEIR lives affect OUR lives.
No matter how much you say something doesn't affect you or you won't let it affect you, deep down inside the hurt or sorrow is still there. For over nine years I've tried to come to terms with Steve deserting us all and I think "so be it" but I do miss him and his lovely wife and particularly my two grandchildren who were children when I last saw them but now are grown adults with their own lives. Perhaps on my 80th birthday next year we should all visit him or maybe he could be asked to arrange a party for my birthday. We all have these strange thoughts on how to make everything all right again. I am just so thankful that I still have you my lovely daughter. I am always so thankful that you are there even if we don't see each other all that often. xxx
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